Unloading Zone

I made a pact in my mind that I was going to work on my patience with my kids.
This began over the weekend.
I loose my patience very easily with my 2 eldest.

I don't know why.
I don't know why it bugs me that Emma never obeys me when I ask her to do (or not to do) something.
I don't know why it bugs me when Kate constantly screams over NOTHING.
I don't know why it bugs my son wants me in sight at ALL TIMES or he'll scream too.
I don't know why it bugs when Luke will only nap for 45 minutes.
or that he wants to nurse minutes at a time then check out his sisters....

So I find it amusing that after my pact with my mind, I would have a day like today. When I was very outnumbered with screaming, requests, disobeying, messes, yelling, crying, pushing, hitting, climbing etc (trust me, I could go on)

I don't want to become one of those moms you hear and see at Walmart that are so mean and annoyed with their children, yanking them around. It is so sad to see that. My heart just aches for those children. In that environment, their spirits are broken.

I don't what my kids to have broken spirits. I want my home to be full of love, kindness, hugs, kisses, and laughter.
That's my motivation in wanting more patience and understanding. This mother thing is not as easy as I first thought it would be, when I had one baby. With each kid, it just gets more difficult. But with each kid comes a new spirit into our family that is unique and beautiful. Each are gifts from God. I have the responsibility to rear them in love and righteousness.

I was reading a friend's blog who just had her third child as well. She said that she has never been so humbled in her life. That's how I feel with being a mom of three. I am constantly seeking help from my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to keep a happy face for my kids.

I honestly love the chaos that comes from being a mom. It just feels innate in me.
But it's hard.
And I need it.
I need it to grow and become a better mother.

I am grateful for my family of 5. I had a wonderful mother's day.
Sleeping in.
Breakfast in bed...waffles, whipped cream and strawberries.
Wonderful Church meetings
& Baby Back Ribs and mashed potatoes...YUM.

Joe makes the best BBRibs. I love him. I love them.

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